In reading the posts I have on here from the past its pretty clear that I am way overly obsessed with my weight. I am constantly dieting and working out. I am not a fat person by any means. I am 5'6 and 135 pounds (4 or 5 of which are boobs). No matter how skinny I get I still see nothing but flaws looking back at me in the mirror. I am so obsessed with my weight I seriously weigh myself after I use the bathroom. Its so dumb. Last winter I got down to 128 (I was also a very unhealthy raging alcoholic) and now that I am 7 pounds more I am kind of freaking out about it. There is more to life than constantly comparing myself to other skinnier girls. It seems as if I will not be happy until my thigh's don't touch at all (it is so close!). I need to happy in my own skin, I know this. It's just that saying that and actually doing that are 2 very different things. I recently started to listen to some pod casts that Joe Rogan does, he's really a fascinating person. The guests that he has on and the topics that they discuss make me realize how fucking insignificant my  own personal issues are compared to other things going on and other peoples problems. It made me feel like a dick for even caring about how I look when there are 400 pound people out there losing limbs from diabetes and i'm over here in my bathroom obsessing about how 1/4 inch of my thighs are touching and I ate too much last night and my stomach is not completely flat. Get a grip dummy.

I'm going to golf and be grateful that I have the awesome things and the awesome people I have in my life. No matter how bad things get for me there are ALWAYS people who have it way worse!