Friday, December 31, 2010


Should have been my middle name. It's New Years Eve 2010. I'll give you 3 guesses on what I'm doing tonight!

1-Going to a huge house party.
2-On my way to Vegas with Travis to ring in the New Year with style.
3-Going to a bar with a bunch of friends to enjoy to the people I love the most.

...Think you can guess???

None of the above- it was a trick question!

Truth be told i'm in my room sharing a bowl of rice and xanax with my dog trying to not puke over the gallon of cologne lingering around that Jeremy put on before he went out. I might be lame but at least I won't start my year off needing to wash off the smell of shame and a hangover :)

Happy New Year random readers..... and John!

I should add  to this that I was woken up at 3AM and sprayed in the face with windex :)

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

you fall apart and then you stop

Tonight is one of those nights where you wanna eat your drugs and lay in bed and listen to Circa Survive all night.

2010 was probably the worst year of my adult life. I had my fair share of personal problems. I also learned a lot of lessons. I wasted the past 2 years of my life with someone who I knew from the get go was not the one for me. Why you ask?  Because I'm Julie. It's easy to see from this blog that I am an alcoholic and definitely co-dependent. I am almost 27 and sadly have just barely begun to be ok with the fact that I need to be happy alone before I can be happy with anyone else. Lots of wasted time there!!

I wish my life had a fast forward button. Is it bad to admit that I don't want people I know reading this because after I read it myself I realize what a negative bitter girl I am? 

I do have a little dog who loves me and great friends. I have a decent job that I enjoy going to. Do me a solid 2011 and don't be a repeat.

**Cause if you're half as good as you say you are then you can prove it**