Should have been my middle name. It's New Years Eve 2010. I'll give you 3 guesses on what I'm doing tonight!
1-Going to a huge house party.
2-On my way to Vegas with Travis to ring in the New Year with style.
3-Going to a bar with a bunch of friends to enjoy to the people I love the most.
...Think you can guess???
None of the above- it was a trick question!
Truth be told i'm in my room sharing a bowl of rice and xanax with my dog trying to not puke over the gallon of cologne lingering around that Jeremy put on before he went out. I might be lame but at least I won't start my year off needing to wash off the smell of shame and a hangover :)
Happy New Year random readers..... and John!
I should add to this that I was woken up at 3AM and sprayed in the face with windex :)
Friday, December 31, 2010
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
you fall apart and then you stop
Tonight is one of those nights where you wanna eat your drugs and lay in bed and listen to Circa Survive all night.
2010 was probably the worst year of my adult life. I had my fair share of personal problems. I also learned a lot of lessons. I wasted the past 2 years of my life with someone who I knew from the get go was not the one for me. Why you ask? Because I'm Julie. It's easy to see from this blog that I am an alcoholic and definitely co-dependent. I am almost 27 and sadly have just barely begun to be ok with the fact that I need to be happy alone before I can be happy with anyone else. Lots of wasted time there!!
I wish my life had a fast forward button. Is it bad to admit that I don't want people I know reading this because after I read it myself I realize what a negative bitter girl I am?
I do have a little dog who loves me and great friends. I have a decent job that I enjoy going to. Do me a solid 2011 and don't be a repeat.
**Cause if you're half as good as you say you are then you can prove it**
2010 was probably the worst year of my adult life. I had my fair share of personal problems. I also learned a lot of lessons. I wasted the past 2 years of my life with someone who I knew from the get go was not the one for me. Why you ask? Because I'm Julie. It's easy to see from this blog that I am an alcoholic and definitely co-dependent. I am almost 27 and sadly have just barely begun to be ok with the fact that I need to be happy alone before I can be happy with anyone else. Lots of wasted time there!!
I wish my life had a fast forward button. Is it bad to admit that I don't want people I know reading this because after I read it myself I realize what a negative bitter girl I am?
I do have a little dog who loves me and great friends. I have a decent job that I enjoy going to. Do me a solid 2011 and don't be a repeat.
**Cause if you're half as good as you say you are then you can prove it**
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Friday, November 19, 2010
Thursday, November 18, 2010
inside in
This is the second day in row I have not said a single word to the person who is now referred to as "room-mate". When the hell did my life get so retarded? Who tells someone" I think its best we break up.....I don't want to be with you anymore" then in the next breath implies that we should still live together? I'm sorry but the last thing I want/need is to come home and have to walk around on eggshells 24/7. I have enough bull-shit at work thanks.
Let's look on the bright side- there are always these:
Prescription "FML" eye drops for all your fuck my life moment. Courtesy of Alana the pharmacist.
Let's look on the bright side- there are always these:
Thursday, November 11, 2010
It's time to throw in the towel!!
Let me start of by saying you know your home life is fucked when you get anxiety about going home from work. Quitting time comes around and everyone else is OUT.....I on the other hand stay late because I don't even like being at home.
I come home and let Rox out and spend the rest of my night watching netflix in bed because my boyfriend/roommate is doing 1 of 2 things, sleeping or holed up in his room playing video games. He works graves so we don't see each other much anyways but when I feel like its a chore for him to hang out with me it is not a good thing.
The past year has been total waste.
No matter how much I try and get along, no matter how skinny I get, there is always some lame excuse for why he won't put out or why he doesn't lift a finger. It's hard to keep loving someone and making excuses for someone who is only with you because they "like your companionship" Enough is enough.
When I think about how happy and different my life was before it makes me sad. I think its time to just suck it up and start over and find happiness with myself instead of trying to find it in something that is just broken beyond repair. I have been holding on to the memory of how good things were the first 6 months of our relationship with the thought that things will change- they wont.
I come home and let Rox out and spend the rest of my night watching netflix in bed because my boyfriend/roommate is doing 1 of 2 things, sleeping or holed up in his room playing video games. He works graves so we don't see each other much anyways but when I feel like its a chore for him to hang out with me it is not a good thing.
The past year has been total waste.
No matter how much I try and get along, no matter how skinny I get, there is always some lame excuse for why he won't put out or why he doesn't lift a finger. It's hard to keep loving someone and making excuses for someone who is only with you because they "like your companionship" Enough is enough.
When I think about how happy and different my life was before it makes me sad. I think its time to just suck it up and start over and find happiness with myself instead of trying to find it in something that is just broken beyond repair. I have been holding on to the memory of how good things were the first 6 months of our relationship with the thought that things will change- they wont.
Sunday, October 17, 2010
I have nothing to epic to post about lately so i'll make it short.
I moved offices finally. I won't be bitching about work for a while.
I'm giving up the booze again for reasons not worth blogging about.
And I finally got to Tanner park with everyone today. It was awesome. I think ill be going every weekend until my dog is dead.
I'm eating a huge piece of meat for dinner for the first time in a while...... I still cant get down on the tuna though. Stupid movie making me replace tuna with snack-packs.
I moved offices finally. I won't be bitching about work for a while.
I'm giving up the booze again for reasons not worth blogging about.
And I finally got to Tanner park with everyone today. It was awesome. I think ill be going every weekend until my dog is dead.
I'm eating a huge piece of meat for dinner for the first time in a while...... I still cant get down on the tuna though. Stupid movie making me replace tuna with snack-packs.
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