2011 SLC Undie Run

So much FUN!! I went to this seriously like 45 mins after waking up. Hence the no make- up. I am glad I went though. It was really fun and awesome to see so many people there. We all set a new Guinness world record for the most people to run in their underwear at once. The previous record was 500 something. Enjoy these unflattering pictures!

Me and Chelsea

Pat and Chelsea

UT State Capitol Building

Me and Twiz at the capitol being fat

Jason on a police bike

Travis too...This policeman was letting everyone sit on his bike.

New record!!

Pac-Man

God Dammit!

I am officially the last one of my childhood friends to get married. No, don't get confused now. I am NOT, I repeat NOT getting married. All of my friends are now though. Fuck! No wonder I collect dogs. Those broads are busy pushing out kids and planning weddings. I get home from work and spend the majority of my night staring into my empty refrigerator and brushing my cat that I hate, because I hate her.

It's OK, they can have play dates with their kids and double dates with their husbands. I'll be home watching re runs of intervention and crying myself to sleep because I'm 3 years away from being a weird old dog lady. I need to delete my facebook right about now. Its seriously fucking depressing me.

In reading the posts I have on here from the past its pretty clear that I am way overly obsessed with my weight. I am constantly dieting and working out. I am not a fat person by any means. I am 5'6 and 135 pounds (4 or 5 of which are boobs). No matter how skinny I get I still see nothing but flaws looking back at me in the mirror. I am so obsessed with my weight I seriously weigh myself after I use the bathroom. Its so dumb. Last winter I got down to 128 (I was also a very unhealthy raging alcoholic) and now that I am 7 pounds more I am kind of freaking out about it. There is more to life than constantly comparing myself to other skinnier girls. It seems as if I will not be happy until my thigh's don't touch at all (it is so close!). I need to happy in my own skin, I know this. It's just that saying that and actually doing that are 2 very different things. I recently started to listen to some pod casts that Joe Rogan does, he's really a fascinating person. The guests that he has on and the topics that they discuss make me realize how fucking insignificant my  own personal issues are compared to other things going on and other peoples problems. It made me feel like a dick for even caring about how I look when there are 400 pound people out there losing limbs from diabetes and i'm over here in my bathroom obsessing about how 1/4 inch of my thighs are touching and I ate too much last night and my stomach is not completely flat. Get a grip dummy.

I'm going to golf and be grateful that I have the awesome things and the awesome people I have in my life. No matter how bad things get for me there are ALWAYS people who have it way worse!

Monday already :(

Last week seemed to drag so bad and it's already Monday again. At least it's a short week for me, I took Friday off to go to Durango for a rally. I just downloaded the blogger app. Now I can bore you all from anywhere since I'm mostly too lazy to unhook my laptop from my tv and blog in bed...so off the non topic here...Another app I really like and have been using a ton is littlephoto. It does this to your pictures. There are tons tons of other settings too. I heart this.

It's thundering and raining right now and I can feel the wind and smell the rain through my open window. I love thunderstorms even though my dogs end up in bathtub because they are scared. It's sooo loud right now and lighting up my room. I wish I could tag a smell on this! This girl is going to sleep really good tonight. Hope you all have a good monday:)

I love my pets ok. I just really am not ok with the amount of hair that covers everything everywhere. I am on the brink of shaving this cat I have. I don't even care for cats, I have this one and don't have the heart to send it to the pound because no one wants a full grown, fat, asshole cat. I need help. Maybe I should just clean more. I have hard wood floors and was looking at them today and about died when I saw how much hair is behind my couch. HELP ME.

I said I would post some pictures of my latest debauchery. 

Worst buffet ever EVER

 

Watch the one in  yellow

Had to drug Jason by the end of the night.....

Chicken Dinner?

booze and strippers

OOOweeehh.

This was an expensive weekend.
I went to Nevada with the gheys. It was pretty fun. I have pictures but they are better left off of this blog. Long story short I ended up having to drug poor Jason to get him back in the car. I have never had anyone give me a weirder look... maybe I shouldn't have tossed a xanax in his jack at the bar?

I have been taking some pole fitness classes since p90x is fucking boring. I will say those work the hell out of you! I am buying a pole for my house next week. One of the girls who was with my friend this weekend is a stripper and said she has had no pole training at all.... shes a damn liar ok.

I will post pictures, but not now since my job went and blocked all useful websites.

GRR

Oh hai! I don't know if you have noticed but almost all of my images have been deleted, how awesome. I have google+ to thank for it. Not a fan.

I thought I post about my p90x progress. I never have really liked working out. I really would rather go get a filling than work out for 2 hours. I have been sticking to this though. Is it hard..yes. Does it make you sweat....YES. After the first week it started to suck because I had seen the first week so I knew what I was in for everyday. I had to stop weighing myself as well. You do not lose weight right away w this. I can definitely see a difference in my body though. It seems way tighter and my clothes (and underwear) are starting to fit better. Finding the motivation to do it everyday is hard :(